Wow....where has time gone!

I certainly don't know!! I cannot believe it's beens so long since I've come here and typed about....well whatever. I noticed on my last blog I had started doing WW online. Well, obviously I quit. However, a month ago I started WW again and I am attenting meetings. 10 lbs gone so far. I am very proud of that.

This past year I have hurt my knee, dealt with migraines, my father in law passed away, gained again.......had to quit doing zumba which is frustrating.....started back zumba and know I have hurt my knee and my back. So, very frustrated again!! Not a happy camper when it comes to zumba...because I love it.

On the upside....it's just a week until my granddaughter's first birthday. I am so excited. It's been about a month since we've seen her and she grows so much and starts doing so many things that we miss out on. It's kind of depressing, but when we do get to see her, that all passes and you just feel the love. She's such a precious girl! I'm more than a little biased, but she is too cute!! She has me and the DH wrapped around her little finger for sure!! Next Saturday we are going to her birthday party and I can't wait. Of course, I have to feel better. Having a cold/sore throat/stopped up ears issue, but will hopefully flush all that out before the weekend!!

Like I said earlier, I feel like I am falling apart. Been on a heating pad all weekend with my back. Wrenched it doing zumba. The upside to that is it's hurt so much I haven't noticed my knee pain...haha. Have had a headache all weekend too. Think it's more sinus related than migraine related as my throat is hurting and so are my ears. I am much too young to feel this damn old for sure! I've always handled my weight....carried it well......was always strong, etc. So, having knee pain and hobbling and getting up and my back is hurting and I'm limping and having a hard time walking........well, I'm not handling that well. Wish I had a pool actually! I would "swim it out" if I did!

Okay...so I've rambled, but I'm back again! Reading everyone's blogs again! So proud of so many of you!!! Keep up the great work!

I JUMPED!!!

Yep, that's right........jumped back on the band wagon! Started WW online AGAIN this past Monday. I kept my weigh ins for Thursdays though and yesterday, I had lost 4.8 lbs. Woohoo! I know this stuff works, I just have to work "it". I'm really good at starting out.....its the keeping it up that I'm not good at. I am really good at dieting...........when I do it. I am no good with maintenance. When I finally DO get rid of all of this weight, I will have to really work hard on maintenance instead of diet. There's a big difference.

So, going to see my granddaughter tomorrow. Still can't believe I am a grandma. That's an amazing thing being a grandma! That baby just melts my heart. My babies melt my heart still, so what it is that makes a grandchild so GRAND? Is it our age? Maybe. I think with me and the DH its the fact that we were both so young and so broke when we started having kids that we couldn't enjoy them the way we wanted. I must admit, I am blessed that i got to be a stay at home mom with both of my boys. I went to work after my youngest was a year old and so I enjoyed my time at home. HOWEVER....through the years, I worked full time and I worked part time to work around my children's schedules, and I came to find out that I was a better mom when I worked. I got more done and appreciated my time with them more! My hubby is so head over heels in love with this baby and I think it's because he can just be himself with no worries, no responsibilities, just pure love and nothing else. It's so fun to watch!

So, I continued to zumba through the summer even though I spent most of the summer in OK due to my father-in-law's cancer and then death. It was hard to go thru and there was a three week span that I didn't do zumba boy did I feel awful! Plus, the three trips to OK played hell with my ankles. They swell so much when I am riding/driving so that part was miserable. Plus when you are around family and people bringing in food, well I didn't eat right either. That's why I had to do something! So, back on WW. I feel good about it.

Well, the wagon train is calling my name....better jump on it!! haha

Where have I been?

Nowhere! I have been here actually. Here? No, not here or I would've posted, here being at home doing nothing. Working myself to death and getting over stressed. Hoping to make two more weeks so I can be on summer vacation. Here....not dieting...not thinking about what I am eating, and of course, eating all the wrong things. Wonder why I do this? I ask this question a lot and yet I'm no closer to answer now than I ever was. EXCEPT LAZINESS OF COURSE!

Parts of my job got easier this year so I was thinking that when it came time for my audit that it would be a much easier process. I was wrong. I feel like a procrastinator, yet some of my work is dependent upon other people, making me look like I can't keep deadlines, when in reality, they aren't keeping their deadlines and I CAN'T STAND THAT! I am a deadline kinda person. I like having my ducks in a row and I like accomplishing my tasks in a neat and timely manner. Now, I am not OCD AT ALL.......because I can let some things go and no obsess. But, I like having my work planned out and done when its supposed to be done. So here I am, working toward my audit and only have two weeks left and there are still some people who have yet to even start getting their things done.....so that I can close out my books. FRUSTRATING TO NO END.

Okay, so gonna try with weight watchers again. Online of course. Hopefully after my audit I will have some 5 weeks or so off and be able to plan and manage that part of my life. Let's hope so. I am still doing zumba and loving it. At least twice a week, often three, sometimes four. Week before last I did two zumbas back-to-back. I felt very proud that I could do it.

Started having migraines in October, not long after I started zumba, but haven't quit zumba. Feel like I have one coming on today. In sever months I have had at least six migraines. They did a CT.....I am proud to say they found a brain, but nothing else. Haha! Been doing a lot of reading on the subject and think dehydration my be one of the culprits.

So, just catching up on my comings and goings. Oh, the grandbaby! WONDERFUL! Never imagined I could feel so in love with a baby! She's perfect!

Done with hibernation

Okay, so we have had plenty of snow days here in the south and I cannot believe I am going to say this, but, "I am tired of the snow days already!" Yes, me who loves the snow days, needs to get back in her routine and get back to feeling better. We had four and half snow days this last week...........meaning we went to school a half day last week! Yes, I enjoyed every minute, but am seriously tired of being stuck in the house. I missed three zumba classes!! I don't like that! AT ALL! I have become quite addicted actually. Oh, my food addiction is still quite healthy, don't worry, but I like that I'm putting exercise at the top of my list these days.

So, now that hibernation is over for me, or at least I hope so.....I need to get back on track...........eating wise and zumba wise. We (two close friends and myself) are going to try to do zumba at least five times this week. We use the zumba DVDs at school on Mondays and Wednesdays. On Mondays I also go to a zumba class. Tuesdays are free, but thinking about going to a new one. Wed. at school as I just said. THursday is the same instructor as Mondays class and Fridays an instructor who likes to push the limits. I really like her. I don't know that I could do her class everyday of the week, but would love it she had classes I could go to everyday of the week.......just to see if I could push myself. This instructor is such an inspiration. She has lost 80 pounds doing zumba and eating healthy. I cannot imagine this hyper, thin, spunky happy girl ever being 80 pounds heavier. She is by far the bounciest person I have ever seen. I just think my body could ever do what hers does.........because she's in her late 20s and I'm in my middle 40s, but gonna give it a shot. My biggest obstacle is no longer my weight or stamina even, its the boobs. Yep the girls get in the way and weigh me down. I did just by an Enell sports bra and have only been once........but like it already. Can actually jump around a lot more now.

So, now its on to eating right. I have got to quit taking the easy road. Yes when you work full time its far easier to run through a drive thru and pick up something, or order out at lunch everyday.............but I have got to quit being lazy and plan ahead. I ALWAYS do amazing when I cook ahead and take leftovers for work. So why don't I? Just lazy. Pure and simple. So, I have got to resign myself to do that. My other obstacle that I USE as an excuse is the fact that I get in a rut and cook the same old things. So, I have got to do some research and get some fresh ideas. The easier the better of course, because too many "foo foo" ingredients and I'm not going to cook it! Pure and simple!

I am also ready for the weather to clear. I have a week old grandbaby and I need better weather so I can go see her! Actually, been trying to give mommy and daddy some alone time. Know the other grandparents are hovering because they live in the same city and I refuse to be like them. SO, gonna go next weekend and try and spoil a little!!!

Okay, that's all for the day!

Awwhhhh...Snow in the south

So, we got more snow yesterday. Started while we were in school, so we had to dismiss early. At 8:00 in the morning, after the kids are at school, they decide we need to dismiss early, so they decided we would dismiss kids from school, an hour early! WTF! Are you serious? This was so stupid. Our superintendent cannot stand to call school because of weather because she's a transplant from New York. We don't have the necessary equipment to deal with snow down here. Well this snow, turned to ice real quick. Luckily we did get home in time, but when they "call" school due to weather, at the school I work in (inner city), the parents can never be reached. The new technology of have an automated system call all the parents. Are you kidding me? The parents we have dont' have the same cellphone number for more than a day at a time. The free phones they get with their food stamps only come with 250 minutes and they use that in one day. I am not exaggerating. So, its not uncommon for us to be given a new number at 8 a.m. and by noon when their precious little babies are running 101 temps, they can't be reached. The kicker? They live like 4 blocks from the school and are usually asleep in their beds. We have, on several occasions, gone to their homes to get the parents and they are asleep in bed. 9 times out of 10 when we have a child running a high fever, the parent knew it when they dropped off their child that morning. It gets frustrating. Its frustrating to see these students only wanting love, being neglected by parents who never wanted them in the first place and see them only as a means to get more of a welfare check. What a vicious cycle they live in. Its all so sad. I have much love in my heart for these students, but not for those parents!

Anyway, stuck at home again from the snow, but loving every minute of it. Didn't get to zumba yesterday or today and feel terribly sluggish because of it! Will have to zumba extra next week. My zumba buddy and I have already decided we needed some extra zumba next week to make up for it. We sure are enjoying ourselves!

The weight has stopped mainly because so has the diet. The zumba is keeping me from gaining because of the bad food choices. Last weekend had a baby shower for my daughter in law and had lots of the wrong foods. My work gave me a "grandmother to be" shower yesterday....more cake and wrong foods! OMG! Gotta get back on the bandwagon with the eating right. I need some new ideas though. I've gotten into a rut with my food!

Anyway, just checking in! The grandbaby is due Feb. 12th but the doc doesn't think she will wait that long before she makes her entrance into the world!

Peace out peeps!

With snow....brings temptation!

Okay, so I went to the store yesterday, as did everyone in this town. The threat of snow is in the forecast sending us southerners to the grocery store on the hunt for bread, milk, eggs, all the staples, because Lord knows we cannot be caught in a snow storm without food. Snow storm. That's kind of funny. They really are calling for a lot of snow.............for us anyway. Temps will be low, so they are expecting the snow to stick around, which is not good. However, the upside is hopefully school will be out.

So, I was good and bought tons of good stuff for us to eat. No junk. But, of course, I ate bad yesterday. Got get that off so will exercise today, even though I hadn't planned on it. So, being cooped up in the house is never a happy thing for me. I am not a person who likes to "go", but I am a person who wants to "go" when I get damned good and ready and if the roads are bad, I won't go.

My biggest problem with the impending snow? Trying not to graze the whole time I am at home. I have lots of fruits and veggies so I am hoping my goofy self will go for them before eating anything else. I have no junk in the house, but still have things in the freezer that aren't so good for me that I just won' throw out. Trying to stay away from that. Just got to do things to keep me busy and away from food. Guess I will get started on the baby blanket for my grandchild who is due in five weeks. I also have two diaper cakes to make for her shower next weekend. That should keep me busy. But, busy enough? That's the question!

Well, that's another reason I am here writing. I have to take nexium in the mornings and can't eat for an hour, so trying to do something besides head for the fridge!!

Okay....over and out!

Doing pretty good these days.....

I haven't been here for awhile......just been busy I guess. Had a wonderful Christmas!!! No traveling.....just stayed home. I love working in a school because of the time off...isn't that crazy? It's surely not because of the money!

So, I've become a zumba freak. I am really loving it. I went four times this week and right now..........extremely tired. But, the body feels good. Of course I cannot bounce around like the instructors do, I am way too big for that, but I do pretty good if I do say so myself! I am having a blast. I have a great friend/co-worker who has become obsessed as I am! We are both totally overwhelmed at ourselves because this is so out of our comfort zones. She hasn't got a weight problem. She wants to just lose a few pounds and stay active. She wants to get into a size six. Poor thing!! LOL I love her to death. I am just wishing for an 18/20. I am in a 22/24 right now and things are getting loose. This is far better than the 26/28 I was starting to cram back into. It's feeling good to see my clothes getting bigger and my body getting smaller.

I have started weight watchers online and am sticking to it so far. I didn't eat well today, but stayed within my points. That's gotta help some. I have never eaten my activity points because they don't get used online until after you use all your weekly points. That's weird to me! Anyway, I do love having fruit zero points on this new program. It pretty much makes me eat fruit. I wouldn't eat a banana because they were 2 or 3 points. Nor would I eat grapes, because they were too many points for me. I find myself heading for the fruit. Maybe this new points system will help.

As I am sitting here my back is beginning to hurt. I know I over did this week. But, I do plan to rest the ENTIRE weekend....except for the SNOW DANCES I plan to do so we can have some snow days!! Haha! Love it! That's another perk to working for the school system in the south. We can't drive on that stuff!!

Well, just wanted to check in! See ya!

Migraines

So, I had a migraine that well, was by far the worst I have ever had. I have had migraines in the past, this was not like that at all. It was like an explosion. Woke me up at 3:30. I thought I was dying. Obviously ER personnel don't put that on a priority list because I sat there for three hours....in a dark room with my husband and no one ever came in to check. Anyway, had to have a shot to relieve the pain. I have never had a headache that took me to the hospital or the ER rather.

So this has side lined me for two days now, but it's getting better. Now I just feel like I have a hangover or something. The shot put me out for about 8 or 9 hours. Out like a light I tell ya.

So, feeling better, but still have a nagging pain on the right side of my head!

Peace out peeps

Just a little frustrated!

Yes, I am frustrated. Not disillusioned, just frustrated. Been working out like an animal with this zumba thing. Been dieting with weight watchers. After two weeks....gained three pounds. What a pisser!!! I mean, REALLY? SERIOUSLY? Oh, I know the garbage about building muscle....blah blah blah....Had someone tell me, well one pound of muscle weighs more than one pound of fat! ARE YOU SERIOUS? One pound of muscle weighs one pound.....one pound of fat weighs one pound.......And this person was college educated and taught school for 30 years. No wonder my son never like math.

Anyway, back on the subject.....I know the physical aspects of what's going on with my body, but I'm a spoiled brat and I want to see results now!! No beating around the bush here. I am having a blast with this zumba craze. Me and two friends went to the YMCA last night to a different class. Let me just say.........IT KICKED OUR ASSES! What are we? STUPID? Yes we are! Oh we thought we were something and were gonna go to a different class and just be able to do it. NOPE....This woman, first of all, is some kind of freak...with springs built into her feet, I am sure. No one can be that damned perky and bouncy without some kind of bionic adjustments that have been made to her legs/feet. Oh, and the crunches/hip thrusts....well, if I had done that, I would've dislocated a hip or something. HOWEVER...I felt good when I was done. Could barely move, but was feeling good. Not very sore today, which is a surprise. Mostly I feel like crap today because of the sinus junk. Now zumba has helped loosen up this crap, but it hasn't helped get rid of it!!

So there's my latest on my zumba infatuation. One of the teachers I work with is now going and she was having issues with her hips.....She says she is not having near the issues. Her doctor told her to keep it up. Even if she can never do the steps like they can, she needs to just keep moving. Try it...you'll like it!

Peace out

Having a BLAST!!

Okay, so I have no clue how long I am going to be on this high, but I am going to enjoy it the entire time. What am I babbling about you ask? (Okay, maybe you didn't but I am going to tell you anyway) ZUMBA! It is so much fun. Even last night after packing and moving my son and his wife for two days straight. After straining my back and feeling like I couldn't move another muscle. After giving myself many, many excuses not to go............I WENT! Now, it was a struggle last night. I felt like I was running through mud (or dancing actually), but I felt AMAZING after I was finished and very proud I followed through and went to the class.

As my earlier post mentioned, I have some social anxiety issues and have had for years.....most of my life actually. The fear has always controlled my life and I can't help but think maybe, JUST MAYBE, I am beginning to control the fear. I still VERY self-conscious and I still know that I have two left feet. Now steps are getting easier and I am catching on, but several things are still hard for me, mainly because of my size. BUT THE BIGGEST AND BEST PART? I know this and I know if I keep working at this, my coordination level will rise and hopefully my size will fall!! I am still overwhelmed with the fact that I am actually doing this. I have always been the one to bow out, not get involved, watched as everyone else was having a wonderful time while I sat there wishing it were me out there. God I hope this is me stepping through a new door and finding a whole new world out there! I am tired of not doing the things that I want to do for fear of__________________. There are many things and many things could be added to that blank.

I have also noticed that my fear of speaking out, or speaking up, or talking in front of people has diminished. With work, I have no problem speaking up or standing up for myself when necessary.........So hopefully this is me standing up to myself and telling myself to quit being the wallflower and start dancing!! No longer willing to sit on the sidelines and watch my life go by. I want to be involved!

I HIGHLY RECOMMEND that anyone out there take a Zumba class. If you are worried about judgemental people...........I say "SCREW 'EM!" We have as much right to do these classes as anyone else!!

A few other things I have gotten over:

Well, I have these really ugly toes....yes I know, seems stupid, but for years and I do mean YEARS, I wouldn't wear sandals because in high school this idiot teased me about my toes. So, no cute sandals. NO pedicures. No nothing. Well, guess what? I don't care anymore. I don't like my toes anymore than I ever did, however, if you don't like them, keep it to yourself and KISS MY ASS! Okay, had to vent.

ALSO:...........I have suffered years and years and years during the summer because of my fat legs. I would not wear shorts. Mostly I wore jeans. Not any more. For about the past 5 or 6 years, I wear shorts when I want to dammit. Again, why should I be uncomfortable because of what someone might think? It's taken a lot of soul searching......a lot of getting pissed......and finally I realized I am worth doing things for me and not worrying about whether or not someone else thinks I am fat or have ugly feet or am totally uncoordinated and can't dance. Well, I'm not as uncoordinated as I thought I was......My toes, while ugly, hardly ever get noticed, and my fat thighs......guess what? not the fattest around.......So, I'm learning. It's taken 46 years...but I'm learning.~!
Peace out peeps!

Stepping out of my own comfort zone!

Okay, so I have always been a "shy" person when it comes to exercise. I only exercise at home with a DVD or walk in the neighborhood because I am so out of shape I don't want to embarrass myself. A bit of social anxiety if you will. UNTIL NOW!

I have a lot of friends at work and they have all been trying to talk me into Zumba. Well, I just knew I couldn't keep up or that because I have such a weight problem, that after 10 minutes I would have to stop. So, this past Monday night, I finally got up enough courage to go. Not have a clue what I was getting myself in for, I dreaded it all day long, but was a little excited as well. Compared to me, all of my friends are little and cute and well they just make me sick. Oh, each of them has a few pounds to lose...A FEW POUNDS! HA! I drink enough water today and I could be down a few pounds!

Anyway, so I show up.....guess what? I am not the fattest person in the room. I know that seems petty, but it did ease my anxiety a little. So, we get started. This instructor......little bitty tiny cute and bouncy, starts out show us steps and warming us up. I am like "ok, I can do this"...and I did. Then the pace picks up, and um........hey, I am keeping up. Then the pace picks up a bit more.........I look around (very little cuz you don't really have time to look around).......UM...HEY......I'm still keeping up and I am not the most uncoordinated in the room. Now, she does give us a little tiny bit of time to get water after each major song......which I have to have.....but an hour later....we are through and I am thinking "I THINK I REALLY LOVE THIS!" It was truly amazing! I had so much fun and was so excited that I could actually do this and do it for an HOUR!! OMG...this is so not me!

So, last night................I WENT AGAIN! The Thursday night class is only 45 minutes because its more face paced..........so I went in thinking "I love this...but wonder if I can keep up?" Well, I DID.........and I love it even more!

I feel so wonderful, not only on a physical level, but on a mental level as well. I am not one that likes to step out of that comfort zone much and with the anxiety issues I have dealt with all my life, this is MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR in my life.

Just wanted to share!

Just some thoughts....again

So, my mind is just rambling.......so thought I would put some of it down. So, when the ediets ends (cannot afford to keep it up), I am going on Weight watchers again. I feel good about that and I don't dread it, because I guess I have already started the diet. I have made two really good muffin recipes and tried them out on co-workers who are also on weight watchers....! They were a hit! I need more easy recipes because, well I am lazy and I get bored quickly! Sometimes I am brutally honest too. Haha!

This is just a short note today! I'm back on track, back in the saddle, focused again. It feels good. Now if I can just convince myself to stick with it. That, my friends, is a WORK IN PROGRESS!

See ya :)

Headed in the right direction

I am grateful for the ediets meal delivery plan that I am on. It's been EXTREMELY helpful for me to get my portions under control. They weren't WAY off actually, it was all the other snacking that I did that screwed me up.

I have lost 14 lbs in 2 1/2 weeks. I'm very proud I have stuck with it this long. I feel I am ready this time. I am already feeling better, even though tonight I am beat and not sure why. But, energy-wise at work, I am doing a lot better.

I want to keep this going. I want to get this weight off and I want food to be a priority in my life in an entirely different way. I want it to be important to me to eat healthy instead of consuming my next craving. I feel like an addict, problem is, my drug of choice is food and I can't just give it up like you can drugs and/or alcohol. So, I have to learn how to manage the food instead of allowing it to manage me. Sucks. Food is such a part of our everyday life. There's not a celebration in the south that doesn't come up with a big spread of fried, smothered in gravy, BBQ'd, and/or all of the above plus more of course! Oh yea, we had vegetables around all the years I grew up and now as well. Everything had some sort of fat in them. So, here's to teaching old dogs new tricks. I know these tricks though, I just choose to ignore them.

Well, just putting down my thoughts today. Feeling good, but tired. Feeling the strength to go on.....! No fat grandma!! Or at least not the fattest!! haha

It's Over!

No, no, not the diet! The wonderful fall break that I was on! Gees people, don't go straight for the negative!! haha. I have been weighing myself a bit too much since I started this journey a week ago Friday. HOWEVER, BUT, I have lost 10 lbs. That's right. TEN (10) pounds! I'm into my 2nd week. Doing good. I have two goals for this week. Okay, wait, three.........First and foremost, I want to stay on my plan without going off. Secondly, I need to get in more water. Thirdly (is Thirdly a word?), I want to get my butt moving! Walk, do a tape, something, anything!

ALSO, I need some quick and easy recipes. After my four weeks is over, I am going to go back to dieting on my own. No more pre-made meals. So, I need some VERY EASY, I AM WAY TOO DAMNED TIRED TO COOK recipes! If anyone has a good turkey or chicken meatball recipe. I have been wanting meatballs. Go figure! My biggest challenge when I cook for myself is I end up cooking the same things over and over again, I get bored, and well, you know the rest..........all my weight comes right back on because I dove head first into a bag if chips or a bottle of coke! So, if you know some good recipes. Know someone who knows someone who knows where to find some recipes......let me know. Oh, I am also looking for a good white chicken chili recipe!

So, here's to this upcoming week. Back to work. Diet in full force. Yes, I said diet, cuz lets face it, that's what it is!

Check back later..............

A WHOLE WEEK

So, I made it. I have been on this diet a whole week. That's a new record of late. Usually I go on a diet each morning and by the end of the day I've blown it! That's right...a whole week is a big deal. What else happened in that week? I lost a total of 9 lbs. Of course I am pleased!!! It is teaching me portion control. My stomach is still torn up from the changes, but I think it might be getting better.

We started some home remodeling this week. New fascia boards and soffits done. New back door put in. In two weeks, ALL new windows and vinyl siding. I feel like it's Christmas!! I will be so glad when it's all done. My dining room where the back door was replaced, now needs new sheet rock and painting. But, we need to get the outside done first, so it's lower on the priority list. After the outside is done, we will work on the inside. Replacing floors in the kitchen, dining room, two bathrooms and the living room. So, definitely when all that's over, I will have a whole new house!! I am glad. I love my little house, but boy it needs work! I am truly blessed that the hubby does all this work or there is no way in hell we could afford it.

All in all, this fall break has been great!
Peace out

Day 5

Day five found me down one more pound to a loss of 8 lbs. I feel wonderful about that! The ediets meal delivery thing is working. Don't know how long I can work it (money!!!!!), but I know I committed for four weeks. Then, I have decided, I am not going off the healthy eating plan (Notice I did not say the "D" word). I am taking notes of what I am eating and my portion sizes, so when I get frustrated and and my brain is fried, I can go back to my notes and remember what was working.

So, I had lunch today with my best friend. We met at Olive Garden and I had the apricot chicken and salad. It was good. BUT.....(and yes I have a big BUTT-haha), it gave me such an upset stomach. After eating a week of food with no preservatives, etc. my stomach rebelled...........AND BIG TIME. It was not pleasant. I won't go into any more details.....TMI I realize! Nonetheless, I will have to be careful when eating out. I mean, I planned out what I was going to eat at Olive Garden, got the nutritional information and I have not gone over my daily calorie allowance, I just wasn't ready for real food yet. My best friend is so sweet, she's so excited I am on a diet. She has far less to lose than I do, but she's been doing weight watchers and she's lost over 20 lbs. and I am so happy for her too. We started WW (for the millionith time for me) on August 2nd, she's still going strong, I started cheating at two weeks. So, I have decided I will get back with WW, or something similar after my 4 weeks with this ediets stuff. As I have said before, I just needed something to jump start my weight loss efforts and I guess 8 lbs in five days is a pretty good jump start! I am really going to have to be careful regarding my stomach though. I have an "irritable" stomach anyway. Nothing that has been labeled as irritable bowel or anything, but I've had a "nervous" stomach all my life! Plus, I have been having GERD issues ever since having my hysterectomy, so the stomach issues have always been there.

I am on fall break this week and enjoying myself so much. Wish it would last longer. My husband and my son are in the home remodeling mode and put soffits and fascia boards up this past weekend and will be putting up new vinyl siding and new windows in the next two-three weeks. I will have a whole new house. Oh yea and a new back door. So, since I have no carpentry skills, I do clean up. Yay me! I hate clean up, but I did it. Wore my ass out too! I am so out of shape. Another reason to get this blubber burned off! That and I don't want to be the fat grandma! First grandbaby coming in February...gotta get some of this off!

So that's my tale for the day
Peace out peeps

So, it's been 4 days....

Yep, I have dieted a WHOLE 4 days. That's a record of late! Of course, knowing that this food is costing a fortune has really helped make me stay on it. I got on the scale this morning. Not sure if I should have, but I did. Down 7 lbs. In 4 days? I'm trying not to get to "WOW-ed" by that, but it does make me feel good. Oh, and I do feel good. This not having to weigh or measure or think, I love that! Especially the thinking part. Haha. It really is giving me a sense of portion control. I am staying with this for four weeks, then have decided to go to their 5 day plan. Is it gourmet cuisine? Not really, but it's nothing like nutrisystem either. I did that before and was successful. I chose not to eat healthy when that planned ended.

Just read Debby's post (click here to read it). She talked about choices. We are all where we are at in our lives because of our choices. And a lot of those times, its the bad choices that feel so good and cause so much damage! I too would rather sit down with a bag of potato chips than pay a fortune for this diet program. They taste much better. But, I am trying to make better "choices". When wishing I had chips or pie or whatever, I am trying to change my thinking and and say do I want those chips more than I want to lose weight? You know sometimes the answer is YES! We just have to re-group and get back on track. I have a hard time with that.

Dieting right now I do not feel deprived. Do I WANT something else? Hell yes I do. Do I WANT to be healthier and thinner? HELL YES!!! Right now, 4 WHOLE days in, things are going well.

Thanks Debby for reminding me of my choices. For the most part, my choices in life have been great ones. The daily choices, like putting food in my mouth, not so great. Trying to change that!

Peace out peeps

So, here's what I decided

Well, I only go two comments, but that's ok...............I haven't been here in awhile, so not too many know I'm here.

This is what I've decided. These days...I hate cooking. So, I am going to do the eDiets meal delivery program. There are no penalties if I hate it....so I'm going to give it a try. Pricey you ask? Hell yes it is. But, I'm worth it. I am going to give it a go. The thought of doing points made me nauseating.

After reading Debby's posts of late and Carlos, your recent post, I realize that I'm not alone in this struggle. I also realize that there are other poor suckers out there with all the willpower of a gnat, just like myself! WHY? Good question. Why the hell don't we stick with our diets....whatever they maybe......? WHY? Why do we quit exercising when that rush feels so damn good? WHY? Why do we stop these things that are bodies are screaming YES YES YES for.....and the first cheeseburger, or piece of pie, or bag of chips makes us feel like SHIT SHIT SHIT? No, really...WHY?

Well, my only answer would be, because I am a spoiled brat who is lazy. My answer to all of those WHY's? Because I don't want to cook something I know is good for me. Because I would rather talk to friends on facebook or take a nap than workout. Because I would rather run through a drive through than put out any effort. No thyroid problem. NO metabolism issues. No No No........I'm lazy and I DON'T WANT TO!.

So this Friday I will start on this eDiets stuff and see if I can do this. I will try yet again. Hoping for success and knowing that I can't quit trying. Wanting to feel better. Wanting to get home from work and not want to head straight for the bed or recliner for a nap. I don't usually get the nap, but I do want it!

I have no excuses.

I have hope.

I also have a granddaughter that will be born in February and I don't want to be the "fat grandma"...Ya know????

Later peeps!

Give me your opinion...

Gotta get back to losing.............

Which do you like the best?

Weight Watchers
South Beach
Atkins
Jenny Craig
Nutrisystem
eDiets
eDiets freshly prepared meals
Other

Just wondered what everyone's experiences are!
Thanks!

Home from Hell!!!

That's right folks..........I have been in hell! I went to the inlaws for five days and it's pure hell. My mother-in-law....I get along with fine. Love her to death. Father-in-law..................is THE MOST OBNOXIOUS MAN I HAVE EVER MET IN MY LIFE. Actually he can be nice at times, just never to his own family. Puts the mother-in-law down on a constant basis. Of course, he's one of those that thinks everything he does is the only correct way and everyone else must be foolish for not doing things his way. Infuriating. It's so bad now that my mother in law hardly talks around him when we are there because he jumps down her throat for everything. Sad really. He goes out of his way to spend 30 minutes in a store talking to strangers, yet can't spend 5 minutes talking to his son. The worst thing about all of this, my husband has a lot of the same traits. Granted...I am doing my dead-level best to make him see how he is turning in to his Dad. He tries some of the same things...but I am by no means the push over his mother is. Oh, the mother-in-law takes up for herself a lot more these days, but you never know when that mine-field will blow! My father in law is in bad health and I guess he's on a mission to blame the whole world for it or at least make sure everyone is miserable along with him.

Oh, and then there is the sister-in-law who is the female version of my father in law, however, she never quits talking and turns every conversation to her. She also goes on and on and on about how much work she does and doesn't get paid to do....doesn't that make her a fool? It does in my eyes.

So, I have done my wifely duties (no pun intended) and gone to visit the in laws. Thank goodness they are three states away or we might have to see them more often.

There's no place like home............There's no place like home..................There's no place like home (insert the heel-clicking of Ruby Slippers here)

:)