Saturday, September 25, 2010

So, here's what I decided

Well, I only go two comments, but that's ok...............I haven't been here in awhile, so not too many know I'm here.

This is what I've decided. These days...I hate cooking. So, I am going to do the eDiets meal delivery program. There are no penalties if I hate I'm going to give it a try. Pricey you ask? Hell yes it is. But, I'm worth it. I am going to give it a go. The thought of doing points made me nauseating.

After reading Debby's posts of late and Carlos, your recent post, I realize that I'm not alone in this struggle. I also realize that there are other poor suckers out there with all the willpower of a gnat, just like myself! WHY? Good question. Why the hell don't we stick with our diets....whatever they maybe......? WHY? Why do we quit exercising when that rush feels so damn good? WHY? Why do we stop these things that are bodies are screaming YES YES YES for.....and the first cheeseburger, or piece of pie, or bag of chips makes us feel like SHIT SHIT SHIT? No, really...WHY?

Well, my only answer would be, because I am a spoiled brat who is lazy. My answer to all of those WHY's? Because I don't want to cook something I know is good for me. Because I would rather talk to friends on facebook or take a nap than workout. Because I would rather run through a drive through than put out any effort. No thyroid problem. NO metabolism issues. No No No........I'm lazy and I DON'T WANT TO!.

So this Friday I will start on this eDiets stuff and see if I can do this. I will try yet again. Hoping for success and knowing that I can't quit trying. Wanting to feel better. Wanting to get home from work and not want to head straight for the bed or recliner for a nap. I don't usually get the nap, but I do want it!

I have no excuses.

I have hope.

I also have a granddaughter that will be born in February and I don't want to be the "fat grandma"...Ya know????

Later peeps!


Debby said...

Why indeed?????

You are NOT alone. I know it's awful, but when I read posts like yours, it really does make me feel better. Oh, I hate it that you're struggling, but it lets me know I'm not the only one out there. I don't feel like such a loser, ya know???

I'm soooooooo jealous of your meal delivery system thingy. If you get a cabana boy before me I'm disowning you!

Debby said...

PS: You are so ME! Or maybe I'm so YOU but we think alike a lot!

Kimberly said...

I ate takeout from a prepared chef's case at a local grocery store for a year because I needed stability and didn't want to cook. It was expensive but worth it because it taught me how to eat. Now I cook my own food.

You do what you have to do to establish good habits and build from there. Do not beat yourself up about actually having a plan to succeed. That is what you are supposed to do.

CJ said...

Yes Debby we are alot alike or think alike!

Thanks for the support Kim! I have a hard time putting me first!!

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