Well, I've been struggling with a decision lately and I need to let it out here I guess. Here's the deal: I love my job. I love most of the people I work with. My best friend works with me. I have an unbearable boss. Everyone is leaving because of her. Her the second in charge got a promotion and now has her own school. Well, we ALL joked with her when we found out "Oh please, take me with you if you get a school of your own!" of course, that would only be possible if there was a position open. Today, she called me and told me the bookkeeper position was opening up at her school and she wants me to apply. Its a lateral move. She basically has been in charge at the other school for the 2nd half of the year anyway. She trusts me to do a good job as bookkeeper and I trust her and her integrity as a boss. My current boss will try and stop the transfer. Not because she cares about me in any way, but because it will cause her some major inconvenience and she still isn't well enough to do all of her work and would rely on me heavily to do part of it. I just don't think this opportunity will come about again. I also don't like the path our school is going down as far as who she is putting in place of the ones who are leaving. She amazes me in that she rewards those who whine and snivel and won't do their work, and rides the asses of those who work those asses off on a daily basis. I just don't get it.
So, doesn't sound like much of a choice huh? I pretty much have made up my mind that I am going to put in for the transfer. I could always say no if I don't feel comfortable. But, I don't want to say no. Thing is. This all needs to come about within the next two weeks. Before I have to go back to work at the other school. That is what bothers me. I don't want to start one place then move to another. That could happen. My current boss, as I said, will throw a major fit and a major guilt trip "I don't understand, I have been so good to you" for starters. No she hasn't. Not really. She buys little tokens, but working there with her is like working in a mine field. You never know when you come in whether or not you will be able to walk right through the mine field or if you will come in and get your leg blown off! Seriously.
I just have so many friends there and I'm anxious about the change. I know I can get along at the other school, but I'm comfortable where I am, at least with the teachers and my co=workers. I love them so much. But, again, the true friends will stay true friends whether I leave or not. AT least I hope so.
So there you have it. I'm not good with confrontation and this is going to cause some major confrontation. If I don't take this opportunity, it probably won't come around again. Put in a transfer and hope everything goes smoothly and hope I will get the position or not put it in and stay where I am and be miserable? What a choice. Its the confrontation I believe is what's causing me to wonder. Guess I need to put on my big girl panties and just do it and shut up already! RIGHT?
Thanks if you've read this whole thing. Just needed to put my thoughts somewhere!