Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Delimma? Not sure!

Well, I've been struggling with a decision lately and I need to let it out here I guess. Here's the deal: I love my job. I love most of the people I work with. My best friend works with me. I have an unbearable boss. Everyone is leaving because of her. Her the second in charge got a promotion and now has her own school. Well, we ALL joked with her when we found out "Oh please, take me with you if you get a school of your own!" of course, that would only be possible if there was a position open. Today, she called me and told me the bookkeeper position was opening up at her school and she wants me to apply. Its a lateral move. She basically has been in charge at the other school for the 2nd half of the year anyway. She trusts me to do a good job as bookkeeper and I trust her and her integrity as a boss. My current boss will try and stop the transfer. Not because she cares about me in any way, but because it will cause her some major inconvenience and she still isn't well enough to do all of her work and would rely on me heavily to do part of it. I just don't think this opportunity will come about again. I also don't like the path our school is going down as far as who she is putting in place of the ones who are leaving. She amazes me in that she rewards those who whine and snivel and won't do their work, and rides the asses of those who work those asses off on a daily basis. I just don't get it.

So, doesn't sound like much of a choice huh? I pretty much have made up my mind that I am going to put in for the transfer. I could always say no if I don't feel comfortable. But, I don't want to say no. Thing is. This all needs to come about within the next two weeks. Before I have to go back to work at the other school. That is what bothers me. I don't want to start one place then move to another. That could happen. My current boss, as I said, will throw a major fit and a major guilt trip "I don't understand, I have been so good to you" for starters. No she hasn't. Not really. She buys little tokens, but working there with her is like working in a mine field. You never know when you come in whether or not you will be able to walk right through the mine field or if you will come in and get your leg blown off! Seriously.

I just have so many friends there and I'm anxious about the change. I know I can get along at the other school, but I'm comfortable where I am, at least with the teachers and my co=workers. I love them so much. But, again, the true friends will stay true friends whether I leave or not. AT least I hope so.

So there you have it. I'm not good with confrontation and this is going to cause some major confrontation. If I don't take this opportunity, it probably won't come around again. Put in a transfer and hope everything goes smoothly and hope I will get the position or not put it in and stay where I am and be miserable? What a choice. Its the confrontation I believe is what's causing me to wonder. Guess I need to put on my big girl panties and just do it and shut up already! RIGHT?

Thanks if you've read this whole thing. Just needed to put my thoughts somewhere!


Lori said...

The question is if you don't do this, will you regret it?

I think you have the answer already.

♥ Dee ♥ said...

Just remember, it's business, not personal. You need to make the best business decision you can, as the CEO of Me, Inc.

Carlos said...

life is too short to spend your workday in suckiness... I vote transfer...

bbubblyb said...

Yea, you just have to do what you think is best for you. Hopefully it will all go ok.

Really confrontations are over pretty quickly. I know for me I usually spend way more time worrying about them than actually living through them lol. So take a breath, plan out what you will say to your current boss when it happens and just get through it the best you can.

Debby said...

Wow CJ...breathe g/f! That's a lot of stuff on your plate right now.

My 2 cents worth? I'd put in for the transfer for sure. Hopefully some more of your friends will be able to follow when positions open. THEN, I'd prepare mental battle. You said some really good things...mine field...buying tokens. Remember them, practice them, be prepared for what 'she' will say to you and do defend yourself and your decision. I don't like confrontation either...but sometimes it's unavoidable. You have the opportunity to prepare ahead of time, 'she' won't. We all get into situations where we think 'I should've said this'....think ahead and you can say them! I was able to do that last week with a co-worker and it made me feel fabby!! We'd had a little run in the week before and I was all 'Oh darn I wish I'd said this, I should have said that'...well it happened again last week and I COULD say it. I felt awesome! Hugs to you in your decision process!

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