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Okay, so it was my first week back at work/school! (I work at a school). The kiddos don't start until Aug. 5th. Yes, we here in the south decide its best to send the kids back to school when its so freakin' hot you can fry an egg on the sidewalk. Oh well. By the grace of God, we have had severely MILD temperatures this year. I am thrilled. I am not a hot weather person. I am not a cold weather person. I am a "I really should live in San Diego where the weather is 76 year round" type of person. Well, it gets hotter in San Diego, but its nothing like the sweltering shitty humid heat we get down here "y'all"!!

The week went pretty good even though it was awkward at first. As some of you know, I tried to get transferred out there, but the boss put a stop to it, because well, if I left who would do her job? Anyway, she's been icky sweet this week. I have been just doing my job and trying not to get stressed out. Many changes coming to us this year and well, I'm praying it doesn't get to me. It was an extremely stressful year this last school year, and well with the changes being made....it doesn't look like this upcoming year is going to be any better. Wish me luck! Knock on wood.......Say a prayer....whatever it is you may do........I can use it!

So, just needed to rant. No new progress on the fat-ass side. Its not any bigger at least. That's a start! LOL Me and my friend from work have decided when school starts back, we are dieting again. Wish me luck on that one too. I want to actually! I need to just to help me feel better.

This is my ramblings for the evening! Peace out Peeps!

Last weekend of freedom!

That's right peeps, I go back to work on Monday. I am so not looking forward to that, especially after the whole "transfer" didn't work out. But, the boss already has decided that I just didn't think things through and would never have left her. Oh hell yes I would have!!

So, another school year begins! Wooooooo - freakin - hooooo! Actually I am looking forward to getting back into the groove of things, but I do so love the sleeping in part. Will definitely miss that. Especially right now.....just splurged on a new mattress and box springs and the hubby and I spared no expense. OMG, what I have been missing! We tried several mattresses and I have always had some sort of pillow top mattress. This time, I didn't get the pillow top. This mattress we got is so amazing. I honestly didn't think I would want a "firm" mattresses.....it's WONDERFUL. I have had two of the best nights of sleep. The first night, because it was so different, I tossed and turned, but did NOT wake up sore and stiff the next morning.

So, I decided to get a cough, right before going back to work. Isn't that lovely. I went to the farmer's market yesterday and got lots of fresh fruit to help get me back in a better eating pattern. Love me some watermelon! OH and fresh blackberries. I love blackberries. As a little girl, my friends and I rode horses every weekend and along this fence line on some of the trails we rode on, there was a massive blackberry "patch" (?)...we could pick buckets full and never get off our horses....Plus we had on boots and that kept us from getting chiggers! Anyway, trying to eat better. I am making an effort to eat healthier stuff, but its not full fledged dieting by no means. I know I need to. My clothes are getting uncomfortable and I hate that. So, its time to get off my ass and do something. I'll never understand why I sabotage myself when it comes to dieting. Really, I think its just pure laziness.....and frustration.......and more laziness more than likely!

If you read this thing, thanks for stopping by......obviously my mind wanders a bit!! No I haven't been drinking! LOL

I wanna go back

Here are a few pictures from the vacation at the beach. What a wonderful vacation! I want to be back there. I go back to work in a week (didn't get the transfer I put in for), and I seriously wish I was back on the beach!!

The ongoing Saga.....

So, the soap opera that is my job, isn't any better today. Okay, as I said in my last post, I put in for a transfer within my system. Its a lateral move. I would just be in a better area and with a MUCH BETTER BOSS! So, today, the woman who is trying to hire me was told she MUST offer the position that I want to the educational assistants at that school before she can offer it me. They must turn it down, before she can offer it to me. Ok. Several things are wrong with this.....First of all, NONE of these people have put in for this position......Secondly, from what my future boss tells me, they don't have the qualifications...............OH, and she has to interview three other people for the position. OK.....again, I would understand this if I was putting in for a new position....or even a position that would be a promotion. I am putting in for the same position at a different school! I so don't understand this. I think its all a mind game and they have someone already in mind for the position and don't have the kahonas to go ahead and say it!

I'm frustrated. Can you tell? I never have been a drama person. I never have been a game player. I am not one who likes turmoil. There are those that do, and OBVIOUSLY they all work in management at my school system! haha! So, for me, I am supposed to go to work on the 20th and I sit here not knowing WHERE! Suck...oh I mean, Such is life! LOL

Nothing Settled

Okay, so I put in for the transfer! Yeah me! However! Or BUT....isn't there always a but? (or BUTT)..Anyway, our powers that be, so to speak, are trying to force my new boss (positive thinking) into hiring someone without my qualifications and without a few other things I won't mention here, but basically, trying to strong arm, because she is new, to hire someone without any experience because of certain other qualifications.

I told my old boss (more positive thinking) and of course, she dealt with it just as I thought she would. She was upset because it was going to be a major inconvenience on her and how was she going to handle things and it was such a bad time for her....you get the picture. So, I didn't feel bad after that. Yet, though she didn't say it to me, she's obviously resigned to the fact that I am leaving and is telling everyone that.

Now, I have to play the waiting game and while they try to put a strong hold on my new boss. She's a pretty tough lady. She feels like they are trying to push her because she is new to this position and they feel like they can push her because of the same thing. She's a lot tougher than they realize. She says she is going to fight for me. That does make me feel good.

So, tonight, I'm sitting here unsure of what my future holds. Its frustrating. I am such a PLANNER that things like this get me down. But, I'm trying not to let it. I have a wonderful support system! I am trying to stay positive. I mean, everyone where I worked (still positive) wants to leave but they don't have the courage to do it.......somehow, I got up the courage to do this. I just hope it all works out!

Thanks for reading...again! I realize its not much about weight loss these days....but it will be again!

Delimma? Not sure!

Well, I've been struggling with a decision lately and I need to let it out here I guess. Here's the deal: I love my job. I love most of the people I work with. My best friend works with me. I have an unbearable boss. Everyone is leaving because of her. Her the second in charge got a promotion and now has her own school. Well, we ALL joked with her when we found out "Oh please, take me with you if you get a school of your own!" of course, that would only be possible if there was a position open. Today, she called me and told me the bookkeeper position was opening up at her school and she wants me to apply. Its a lateral move. She basically has been in charge at the other school for the 2nd half of the year anyway. She trusts me to do a good job as bookkeeper and I trust her and her integrity as a boss. My current boss will try and stop the transfer. Not because she cares about me in any way, but because it will cause her some major inconvenience and she still isn't well enough to do all of her work and would rely on me heavily to do part of it. I just don't think this opportunity will come about again. I also don't like the path our school is going down as far as who she is putting in place of the ones who are leaving. She amazes me in that she rewards those who whine and snivel and won't do their work, and rides the asses of those who work those asses off on a daily basis. I just don't get it.

So, doesn't sound like much of a choice huh? I pretty much have made up my mind that I am going to put in for the transfer. I could always say no if I don't feel comfortable. But, I don't want to say no. Thing is. This all needs to come about within the next two weeks. Before I have to go back to work at the other school. That is what bothers me. I don't want to start one place then move to another. That could happen. My current boss, as I said, will throw a major fit and a major guilt trip "I don't understand, I have been so good to you" for starters. No she hasn't. Not really. She buys little tokens, but working there with her is like working in a mine field. You never know when you come in whether or not you will be able to walk right through the mine field or if you will come in and get your leg blown off! Seriously.

I just have so many friends there and I'm anxious about the change. I know I can get along at the other school, but I'm comfortable where I am, at least with the teachers and my co=workers. I love them so much. But, again, the true friends will stay true friends whether I leave or not. AT least I hope so.

So there you have it. I'm not good with confrontation and this is going to cause some major confrontation. If I don't take this opportunity, it probably won't come around again. Put in a transfer and hope everything goes smoothly and hope I will get the position or not put it in and stay where I am and be miserable? What a choice. Its the confrontation I believe is what's causing me to wonder. Guess I need to put on my big girl panties and just do it and shut up already! RIGHT?

Thanks if you've read this whole thing. Just needed to put my thoughts somewhere!