Sunshine and Flowers!

Okay, if you know me, or if you've read any of my posts, you know I am not the "sunshine and flowers" type of person. As I have read some of my own posts, it looks like I am a bitchy whiner. I don't mean to be. I am a happy person. Guess I use this blog to sort out what I am feeling! It just seems more of the negative shows through than the positive. So....here's to positive. I have a lot of positive in my life, one of which is that I am feeling better today. Didn't go back to work, but am feeling better!!!!! Thanks to everyone who gave me some positive reinforcement! I truly appreciate it.

I would say that for most of us, dieting isn't always a positive. I am trying hard to make this a positive experience. I know we shouldn't say diet, but who are we kidding? Its a diet. Own it! As I was watching the biggest loser last night, I realized, we all have to own it. We know why we got here. We know why we gained, or didn't lose as much as we wanted. I so wanted Bob or Jillian to go off on Joelle last night. I don't usually watch, but this year, I started watching it and have found, though most people hate Jillian and love Bob........I love them both. No nonsense. You didn't lose because you ate bad and didn't try. There you go! Its not muscle, its not water retention, its just you! I love it!

So, I am trying to write some positive and no negative. I can't promise that the negative monster won't rear its ugly head, oh let's say by tomorrow, but I am trying. So, here's to Sunshine and Flowers, as long as its after I've had my shower in the morning and not before....I am not a morning person! Oops there I go again! LOL Seriously! Don't talk to me before I get my shower!

I've been sidelined!

So to speak! Just thought with my earlier football statement it was appropriate! LOL I woke up in severe pain this morning. Went to the doctor and have a very bad UTI/bladder infection. No wonder I was hurting all weekend. Thought I just over did it...which the doc said just didn't help matters any! He wants me to take it easy for a few days and not over do it. Walking is okay, but we were power walking somewhat and he wants me to tone it done. Of course, he's happy I am doing it, just wants me to back off a bit.

So, here I sit at home again. I thought after going back to work from the hysterectomy, I wouldn't be here so soon! I am not one that likes to take sick leave. That's why the hysterectomy didn't hardly make a dent in my sick days.

Program wise...I suck! No excuses. Just didn't want to bother. But, don't take that as giving up, because I am not. I have felt too bad to prepare my food and just taking what I can get. It always gets me in trouble. But, have a chicken in the oven and eating good tonight. Taking leftovers to work tomorrow. Going to plan no matter how bad I feel, because I refuse to give up! So, I am kicking my own ass in gear and deciding this is not good enough!

There you go...........another days rambling and that was on pain medicine too!! LOL

Super Bowl Sunday - Not so SUPER!

Well, I weighed in today. I did lose, just not what I had wanted. I lost .4. I know, I know, a loss is a loss! I did have two bad days this week, but I didn't think they were that bad. At first, the lady weighing me said I was down 2.2! Wow, I will take it. Then, after the meeting, when I got home, I looked in my book again. She had subtracted wrong. WHAT A DOWNER! But, this will only make me try harder this week. And just think, that's without having the pizza!! I stayed strong and didn't get the pizza last night or today! That's a NSV I suppose!

I think I over did it this past week with exercise. I am only 2.5 months out from the hysterectomy and I think I over did it a bit. Granted, I am not lifting weights yet or anything, but we are doing some serious walking. I have hurt all weekend long and my tummy is a bit swollen from it. Now, I realize, most people wouldn't be able to tell the swollen part from the "fat" part, but I can, especially since I saw it right after surgery and I am down 12 lbs. since then. Anyway, I have taken it fairly easy this weekend. I walked some last night instead of eating pizza, but nothing like we were doing this past week at school. I guess my body is telling me to lighten up a bit! It does feel so good after I exercise, I must say. It is definitely helping me get may brain out of the hormone fog that it seems to be stuck in!

Anyway, just wanted to check in and say I lost...........! It is a good thing, but I can't help but be honest and say "I WANTED MORE!" Greedy I guess!! LOL

For all the football funs, have a great time tonight and try to be good! (I can't promise anything! LOL)