2008 Reflections

I guess I will jump on the bandwagon and write about the year "2008". As I sit here thinking, I am feeling like it was a pretty great year. We made it through another year. I am healthy, my family is healthy, what more could ask for? Nothing. Oh we could ask to win the lottery, but really its not necessary. Would it be nice? Well sure!!! Of course, there is one catch to that..."You gotta buy the damned ticket first!" LOL

The year started out kind of rough. My son was going through a rough time physically and emotionally. My youngest started out the year passing out behind the wheel of his truck, having a wreck, and taken to the hospital in an ambulance. After many, many, many tests, nothing was found. He has a history of a heart problem that was corrected when he was 13 (he is now 20), but the tests for that recurring were negative. All tests were negative. We should've been happy, right? Well not knowing drove me crazy. He had another passing out spell at college, sending him to the ER again. More tests, more doctors, but not any more answers. He has been through many tests this year and the only thing they ever came up with was anxiety. He seems to be fine now. During the summer, this same son (I have two = one is 25 and the youngest is 20) had an accident with an auger bit and nearly shredded his first finger right off on his right hand. The doc at the ER was amazing and did some amazing sewing to get that finger back where it needed to be. He has full use of the finger and just some scars and some nerve pain are his constantly reminders. He was so lucky, or blessed, that it wasn't worse. He, obviously, is my accident prone child. After having horrible semester due to all the health problems, he didn't go back this year. He plans to start back up this next semester. My oldest son, was accepted into a master's program that basically he is forming himself. He also got funding for his master's program, which was a major biggie. He's been under some major stress with his coursework and his work he has to do with the local Indian Museum. He's studying to be a Forensic Anthropologist and getting this funding and internship was a major "kudo" for him. He's a bone guy, so to speak. Because he went to college at UT where the "body-farm" is, he has exerpience and knowledge that some of his professors don't have, so he's already being asked to help teach some anthropology courses. Pretty cool. He and his wife are doing remarkably well, other than living next door to her parents. Its about to drive both of them crazy, and boy I understand that! But all in all, they are happy too! Just busy. His wife is a CPA and now that the year is ending, well we won't be seeing her until after April 15th! But, she is working!

So, due to the fact that my youngest, ever since her started football in high school, seems to be a regular at the ER, I have put my female health problems on the backburner. Well, they reared their ugly head and I had to have a hysterectomy in November, rounding out the year just fine!! Now, I realize this is just the tip of the iceburg and seems like a lot to go through, but hey, seems like a normal year to me! LOL We've been through better, we've been through worse.

I can't see anything but the good in my life, even when little crises tend to rear their ugly heads. How many people do you know who have a wonderful marriage after 26 years? I do and am so happy about it. My husband and I have stable jobs that are secure. We have money in the bank. We live the life we want to live. What could be better? Sure, we all wish things were different. I wish I had this weight off of me. I wish my son could figure out what he wants to do with his life so he could be happy too. I wish for all of those soldiers to come home without yet another casualty. I know this is cliche' and hoakie, but I wish health and happiness to all the people I know and love and to all my blogging friends as well!

My best advice? Don't sweat the small stuff, its all small stuff.....and savour the moment. Especially to those who have children. Don't turn around becasue before you know it, their grown! Don't miss that ballgame or band recital because you are too busy because that's something you can't get back..........(I didn't miss any but my husband had too for various reasons beyond his control and he wishes he could get those moments back). Hug your kids. Hug your wife/husband. They are what matters!!

Happy New Year!!

I've been dismissed!!!

Okay, so that's misleading, but have been to the doctor and have been medically released. We discussed the pains I have been having and feel like he just dismissed them without much thought. Even though, these pains are manageable, they are still bugging me! He explained them all away, which is good, but its frustrating to still be having pain. He said the pain could go on for 3-6 months. I realize the six week mark isn't a magically healing moment, just frustrated that one day I think I am back to normal and the next I feel like shit again. Of course, he said that is normal too. He thinks the fatigue will go on for a couple more months. He said all the right things, blah, blah, blah, but it didn't make me feel any less frustrated.. What was I wanting? I am not sure. I guess I was wanting the all masterful genius doctor to wave his magic wand and declare me "HEALED, YOU ARE HEALED!" That's not what happened!! Of course, he told me the obligatory if things get worse, yadda yadda yadda, just call back. We all know how easy it is to get in touch with our doctors, now don't we?

Well, as for being OP today, well, its been a great day. I even had starbucks. I hadn't used very many points throughout the day, so after stopping by to see the hubby at work, I stopped by Starbucks and got me a white chocolate mocha. One of my many weaknesses. Lucky for me, they closed the starbucks that is close to me!! I now have to go way out of my way to get one....so it is a nice treat. Still have 4 pts. left for the day. Probably won't use them. I am sitting here on the heating pad, relaxing waiting for the Advil to kick in. I have no intentions of moving right now! I did work out this morning, so I don't have to feel too guilty for sitting back and doing nothing!

All in all, I guess I have had a great day. Stayed OP, got released from the doc, had dinner with the hubby, and now sitting and relaxing! Awwwhhhhhh! It feels good!

What have you done for yourself today?

First Day OP.......A little slip up!! (Already???)

Yeah, well, it was calling my name. It was taunting me. So I ate it. The leftover pumpkin cheesecake. Yep, I ate it. I counted....YES I COUNTED IT, but really? Using your WPAs on the firs day? How warped is that?

I did eat good today though. I managed to get in all my healthy guidelines, etc. I managed to get in all the water. I also have a diet headache. Yeah, every time I start dieting again, I get the headache! This too shall pass. Now that I think of it, it may just be a caffeine headache. I don't think I have had any today. WOW. That's great.

Well, I must say my greatest accomplishment for today was throwing that damned cheesecake in the garbage. Well???? It made me mad that I gave in so quickly, so dammit IT HAD TO GO! Wish I had been that strong before I actually ate a piece, but hey, BABY STEPS....right?

I worked out a little today too. Waiting until I see the doctor tomorrow before doing anything major. Just some walking, but I did get the heart rate up a little, so hey, its gotta count!

Just wanted to share my first day OP and my very first clusterfuck/messup!