Work helps! What?

So, back at work after the long vacation. Ok, not a long vacation, a very short one. Started back yesterday. Just teachers, no students. Kids started today. Everything went smooth yesterday and today. It was quite refreshing.

Best of all....work kept my mind of my issues with my son. I don't really know what to do. Things are "stable" I guess you could say. Your child hurts, no matter what age, you hurt. As a mom, that's one of the hardest things. I keep praying and that has brought me much peace. I know God has a plan. Me being such a neurotic "planner" myself, I truly have a hard time letting someone else do the planning and me not knowing what's in store......but I have to learn to give to God and let him plan things out. It's part of my own series of control issues I guess! I am not really a control freak, more of a person who doesn't like surprises. Another reason why these issues are driving me nuts. I am trying though. I really am. I am praying for God's help with my own neurotic issues as well as the issues going on with my son and my family! All of you who have sent prayers this way are truly another blessing in my life!

As for food! Two days and counting people! Started WW yesterday (online) and I always have a readjusting period with my stomach when I start eating right again, it's been tough, but not like REAL TOUGH. Just a little upset tummy! I feel better though in spite of that.

I try not to be a down in the dumps person. I got very emotional over the weekend due to "issues" of course, and the hubby didn't understand. He says he hates to see me that way. Yes, I hate getting that way. But, I had my moment, it made me feel better, and now I can think straight! Sometimes you need a meltdown to make things brighter! LOL AT least I do! No, I'm not crazy! No, that's not a twitch! No no....I am perfectly sane! LOL

Thanks!

Still struggling......but feel blessed

Just wanted to say thank you to all of you who commented and/or emailed me. Knowing there are such caring people out there, who don't even know me or my family and are praying for us.....warms my heart immensely. I know that through God, all is possible and I am truly hanging on to that at the moment.

Without going in to any details, it's regarding my oldest son and a struggle that he is in, which in turn trickles down to the family. He hurts, I hurt. Unfortunately, some of his hurt, he brought on himself. Not all, mind you, but I am a fair enough person to realize he's not perfect. Please continue to pray for him and our family!

God loves him and all of us. I know this. I know he will "stir" this mess and make something beautiful out of it!

Debby, you are amazing! Thanks again!

Struggling

No, I am not struggling with food issues....I'm struggling with heartache and despair and I'm not sure how to handle it. I know it's nothing I've ever felt before. It's not something I am going to delve into here, but please, if you are the praying kind, keep my family in your prayers.

I know God works miracles and am praying for one. I know he doesn't put more on us that we can handle. I am a true believer. How do you handle, though, when someone you are praying for just might not be a believer, but definitely needs Him more than anything right now?

I've truly never felt this heavy despair every in my life that I am feeling right now. One of the reasons I know it's such despair? I am sick, nauseous, can't eat. Now, when I can't eat, it's something rather heavy~ I am not trying to make light of this, I couldn't, sometimes humor helps. At least usually does in our family.

My God continue to watch over us with all that He is.
Thanks for reading!
Just had to put down some thoughts before I exploded!