Its been a long time

Well, well, well, here I am.................after a long absence.......WHY? Who knows. Oh yes, you know. Its because I have been lazy and on and off program more than I can count. I lost four pounds lost week after a three week absence. WOOHOO, how did I celebrate? by jumping right off the wagon and into the fires of hell I guess!

Oh, I have many excuses. Work has been hell, to say the least. It's always this way at the beginning of the school year. I just seem to be annoyed with everyone and everything. I have one co-worker who doesn't get on my nerves........that's it. I just am not in the mood...........for ANYTHING....but food, of course. Any kind of food that I don't have to cook. Work started back, my headaches started back. Go f---ing figure! So, of course, due to the headaches, this wonderful high I have been on due to exercise all came crashing down around me when I stopped exercising. Can you say DUH....you idiot? Then of course there is the issue(s) with my son.......He's a great kid. He just is frozen with fear about getting on with his life and having a future....That or he's just a lazy shit and we are going to have to boot him the hell out of the house. It truly hurts my heart to say those things, but I dare say those feelings are true blue!

So, here I am after a long of week of not caring what I have eaten, coming up to my 44th birthday this next week......................Now, I'm still enjoying the weight loss, the clothes being too big, the compliments, I mean who doesn't enjoy that? But, I'm bored. I'm tired. and OBVIOUSLY I'm a whiney ass. I basically am just here to pour out feelings to put them somewhere. I have only told about 5 or 6 people about this blog and only a few WW online people, but I don't really do this for them to see, mostly just for me. I have inspired others to start their own blogs. I think that's great. Somewhere to put all this stuff in your head and in your heart, huh?

Well, now its on to another week. My WW is closed tomorrow, which is my WI day and on Monday as well. guess I will go Tuesday. Maybe that's enough time to erase some if the damage I have caused this week. Who knows!

See you on the other side of 44!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!