I JUMPED!!!

Yep, that's right........jumped back on the band wagon! Started WW online AGAIN this past Monday. I kept my weigh ins for Thursdays though and yesterday, I had lost 4.8 lbs. Woohoo! I know this stuff works, I just have to work "it". I'm really good at starting out.....its the keeping it up that I'm not good at. I am really good at dieting...........when I do it. I am no good with maintenance. When I finally DO get rid of all of this weight, I will have to really work hard on maintenance instead of diet. There's a big difference.

So, going to see my granddaughter tomorrow. Still can't believe I am a grandma. That's an amazing thing being a grandma! That baby just melts my heart. My babies melt my heart still, so what it is that makes a grandchild so GRAND? Is it our age? Maybe. I think with me and the DH its the fact that we were both so young and so broke when we started having kids that we couldn't enjoy them the way we wanted. I must admit, I am blessed that i got to be a stay at home mom with both of my boys. I went to work after my youngest was a year old and so I enjoyed my time at home. HOWEVER....through the years, I worked full time and I worked part time to work around my children's schedules, and I came to find out that I was a better mom when I worked. I got more done and appreciated my time with them more! My hubby is so head over heels in love with this baby and I think it's because he can just be himself with no worries, no responsibilities, just pure love and nothing else. It's so fun to watch!

So, I continued to zumba through the summer even though I spent most of the summer in OK due to my father-in-law's cancer and then death. It was hard to go thru and there was a three week span that I didn't do zumba boy did I feel awful! Plus, the three trips to OK played hell with my ankles. They swell so much when I am riding/driving so that part was miserable. Plus when you are around family and people bringing in food, well I didn't eat right either. That's why I had to do something! So, back on WW. I feel good about it.

Well, the wagon train is calling my name....better jump on it!! haha

Where have I been?

Nowhere! I have been here actually. Here? No, not here or I would've posted, here being at home doing nothing. Working myself to death and getting over stressed. Hoping to make two more weeks so I can be on summer vacation. Here....not dieting...not thinking about what I am eating, and of course, eating all the wrong things. Wonder why I do this? I ask this question a lot and yet I'm no closer to answer now than I ever was. EXCEPT LAZINESS OF COURSE!

Parts of my job got easier this year so I was thinking that when it came time for my audit that it would be a much easier process. I was wrong. I feel like a procrastinator, yet some of my work is dependent upon other people, making me look like I can't keep deadlines, when in reality, they aren't keeping their deadlines and I CAN'T STAND THAT! I am a deadline kinda person. I like having my ducks in a row and I like accomplishing my tasks in a neat and timely manner. Now, I am not OCD AT ALL.......because I can let some things go and no obsess. But, I like having my work planned out and done when its supposed to be done. So here I am, working toward my audit and only have two weeks left and there are still some people who have yet to even start getting their things done.....so that I can close out my books. FRUSTRATING TO NO END.

Okay, so gonna try with weight watchers again. Online of course. Hopefully after my audit I will have some 5 weeks or so off and be able to plan and manage that part of my life. Let's hope so. I am still doing zumba and loving it. At least twice a week, often three, sometimes four. Week before last I did two zumbas back-to-back. I felt very proud that I could do it.

Started having migraines in October, not long after I started zumba, but haven't quit zumba. Feel like I have one coming on today. In sever months I have had at least six migraines. They did a CT.....I am proud to say they found a brain, but nothing else. Haha! Been doing a lot of reading on the subject and think dehydration my be one of the culprits.

So, just catching up on my comings and goings. Oh, the grandbaby! WONDERFUL! Never imagined I could feel so in love with a baby! She's perfect!

Done with hibernation

Okay, so we have had plenty of snow days here in the south and I cannot believe I am going to say this, but, "I am tired of the snow days already!" Yes, me who loves the snow days, needs to get back in her routine and get back to feeling better. We had four and half snow days this last week...........meaning we went to school a half day last week! Yes, I enjoyed every minute, but am seriously tired of being stuck in the house. I missed three zumba classes!! I don't like that! AT ALL! I have become quite addicted actually. Oh, my food addiction is still quite healthy, don't worry, but I like that I'm putting exercise at the top of my list these days.

So, now that hibernation is over for me, or at least I hope so.....I need to get back on track...........eating wise and zumba wise. We (two close friends and myself) are going to try to do zumba at least five times this week. We use the zumba DVDs at school on Mondays and Wednesdays. On Mondays I also go to a zumba class. Tuesdays are free, but thinking about going to a new one. Wed. at school as I just said. THursday is the same instructor as Mondays class and Fridays an instructor who likes to push the limits. I really like her. I don't know that I could do her class everyday of the week, but would love it she had classes I could go to everyday of the week.......just to see if I could push myself. This instructor is such an inspiration. She has lost 80 pounds doing zumba and eating healthy. I cannot imagine this hyper, thin, spunky happy girl ever being 80 pounds heavier. She is by far the bounciest person I have ever seen. I just think my body could ever do what hers does.........because she's in her late 20s and I'm in my middle 40s, but gonna give it a shot. My biggest obstacle is no longer my weight or stamina even, its the boobs. Yep the girls get in the way and weigh me down. I did just by an Enell sports bra and have only been once........but like it already. Can actually jump around a lot more now.

So, now its on to eating right. I have got to quit taking the easy road. Yes when you work full time its far easier to run through a drive thru and pick up something, or order out at lunch everyday.............but I have got to quit being lazy and plan ahead. I ALWAYS do amazing when I cook ahead and take leftovers for work. So why don't I? Just lazy. Pure and simple. So, I have got to resign myself to do that. My other obstacle that I USE as an excuse is the fact that I get in a rut and cook the same old things. So, I have got to do some research and get some fresh ideas. The easier the better of course, because too many "foo foo" ingredients and I'm not going to cook it! Pure and simple!

I am also ready for the weather to clear. I have a week old grandbaby and I need better weather so I can go see her! Actually, been trying to give mommy and daddy some alone time. Know the other grandparents are hovering because they live in the same city and I refuse to be like them. SO, gonna go next weekend and try and spoil a little!!!

Okay, that's all for the day!