Well?

So, diet, not going so good. I will be the first to say my heart (and stomach) are just not in it. I have good intentions everyday when I wake up, then it leaves oh around lunch time! Don't get me wrong. I am not whining. I am not saying "why oh why God can't I do this?" or anything like that. I am in control of me, or in this case not in control, but its my choice. Why am I saying this? I don't have a clue, other than to say, diet and exercise, not going so well! I really hate myself when I do this. Its eating out where I get "screwed" by myself! I don't want to have to think out the points or figure up the calories or have this on the side or this grilled instead of................(you fill in the blank). As you can tell, I'm just not in to it. Do I care? Yes, I care. I don't like being at this weight. I don't want to gain back the weight I have already lost. I don't want, I don't want, I don't want. What I need to do is kick my own ass and jump start myself. Why don't I do it. Who the hell knows!

Life is good right now for me and my family, but for some reason, I have the "blahs". Just got back from a glorious vacation to the beach. Still have three more weeks off. Hubby just bought me a new truck
So tell me.........why do I have the blahs? I haven't figured it out. If I do I will let you know.

Any suggestions? Greatly appreciated!

It's that time.....

That's right folks............the excuses have run out and its time for me to get back on the wagon! School is through, my summer program is over, and now my vacation is over. So, it's officially time to start back doing the "D" word. Diet. I know, we should never say diet. But why not? We know what it is? Who are we, I, kidding? I have to gain some control before I gain all my weight back.

Just got home from the beach yesterday. Spent a glorious week on the shores of Orange Beach, AL. The weather was perfect. Oh, it was hot, but not the kind of hot I see this time of year in TN....the kind of hot that, if you just sit down next the water's edge, the breezes make you feel like its "cool" and the sun's rays take its toll on your skin. But, boy did it feel great. I wish I could live there. I don't make that kind of money, so I don't see that happening, however, I can go visit!

Reminder: Never invite the in-laws on your vacation. Even though it was my STUPID idea, my husband of course is the wonder child for inviting them. Whatever. Everything I despise about my husband, my father in law does multiplied by about 1000! The father in law started complaining the moment we got there and didn't stop until he left. My husband, lovely man that he is, left me three different times to go fishing with an old high school buddy. I had to entertain them. My answer to that was, "I am going to the pool/beach, if you would like to come and "sit", you are more than welcome. I was not about to entertain them. Again, this won't happen again.

I have four more glorious weeks before I go back to work to start up the next school year. Ahhhhhhh. I am going to try and utilize this time by getting my eating back under control. It is so hard getting back to it after an absence this long. But, I must! I MUST!

So, just wanted to check back in......I haven't been here in awhile!