Wow....where has time gone!

I certainly don't know!! I cannot believe it's beens so long since I've come here and typed about....well whatever. I noticed on my last blog I had started doing WW online. Well, obviously I quit. However, a month ago I started WW again and I am attenting meetings. 10 lbs gone so far. I am very proud of that.

This past year I have hurt my knee, dealt with migraines, my father in law passed away, gained again.......had to quit doing zumba which is frustrating.....started back zumba and know I have hurt my knee and my back. So, very frustrated again!! Not a happy camper when it comes to zumba...because I love it.

On the upside....it's just a week until my granddaughter's first birthday. I am so excited. It's been about a month since we've seen her and she grows so much and starts doing so many things that we miss out on. It's kind of depressing, but when we do get to see her, that all passes and you just feel the love. She's such a precious girl! I'm more than a little biased, but she is too cute!! She has me and the DH wrapped around her little finger for sure!! Next Saturday we are going to her birthday party and I can't wait. Of course, I have to feel better. Having a cold/sore throat/stopped up ears issue, but will hopefully flush all that out before the weekend!!

Like I said earlier, I feel like I am falling apart. Been on a heating pad all weekend with my back. Wrenched it doing zumba. The upside to that is it's hurt so much I haven't noticed my knee pain...haha. Have had a headache all weekend too. Think it's more sinus related than migraine related as my throat is hurting and so are my ears. I am much too young to feel this damn old for sure! I've always handled my weight....carried it well......was always strong, etc. So, having knee pain and hobbling and getting up and my back is hurting and I'm limping and having a hard time walking........well, I'm not handling that well. Wish I had a pool actually! I would "swim it out" if I did!

Okay...so I've rambled, but I'm back again! Reading everyone's blogs again! So proud of so many of you!!! Keep up the great work!

I JUMPED!!!

Yep, that's right........jumped back on the band wagon! Started WW online AGAIN this past Monday. I kept my weigh ins for Thursdays though and yesterday, I had lost 4.8 lbs. Woohoo! I know this stuff works, I just have to work "it". I'm really good at starting out.....its the keeping it up that I'm not good at. I am really good at dieting...........when I do it. I am no good with maintenance. When I finally DO get rid of all of this weight, I will have to really work hard on maintenance instead of diet. There's a big difference.

So, going to see my granddaughter tomorrow. Still can't believe I am a grandma. That's an amazing thing being a grandma! That baby just melts my heart. My babies melt my heart still, so what it is that makes a grandchild so GRAND? Is it our age? Maybe. I think with me and the DH its the fact that we were both so young and so broke when we started having kids that we couldn't enjoy them the way we wanted. I must admit, I am blessed that i got to be a stay at home mom with both of my boys. I went to work after my youngest was a year old and so I enjoyed my time at home. HOWEVER....through the years, I worked full time and I worked part time to work around my children's schedules, and I came to find out that I was a better mom when I worked. I got more done and appreciated my time with them more! My hubby is so head over heels in love with this baby and I think it's because he can just be himself with no worries, no responsibilities, just pure love and nothing else. It's so fun to watch!

So, I continued to zumba through the summer even though I spent most of the summer in OK due to my father-in-law's cancer and then death. It was hard to go thru and there was a three week span that I didn't do zumba boy did I feel awful! Plus, the three trips to OK played hell with my ankles. They swell so much when I am riding/driving so that part was miserable. Plus when you are around family and people bringing in food, well I didn't eat right either. That's why I had to do something! So, back on WW. I feel good about it.

Well, the wagon train is calling my name....better jump on it!! haha

Where have I been?

Nowhere! I have been here actually. Here? No, not here or I would've posted, here being at home doing nothing. Working myself to death and getting over stressed. Hoping to make two more weeks so I can be on summer vacation. Here....not dieting...not thinking about what I am eating, and of course, eating all the wrong things. Wonder why I do this? I ask this question a lot and yet I'm no closer to answer now than I ever was. EXCEPT LAZINESS OF COURSE!

Parts of my job got easier this year so I was thinking that when it came time for my audit that it would be a much easier process. I was wrong. I feel like a procrastinator, yet some of my work is dependent upon other people, making me look like I can't keep deadlines, when in reality, they aren't keeping their deadlines and I CAN'T STAND THAT! I am a deadline kinda person. I like having my ducks in a row and I like accomplishing my tasks in a neat and timely manner. Now, I am not OCD AT ALL.......because I can let some things go and no obsess. But, I like having my work planned out and done when its supposed to be done. So here I am, working toward my audit and only have two weeks left and there are still some people who have yet to even start getting their things done.....so that I can close out my books. FRUSTRATING TO NO END.

Okay, so gonna try with weight watchers again. Online of course. Hopefully after my audit I will have some 5 weeks or so off and be able to plan and manage that part of my life. Let's hope so. I am still doing zumba and loving it. At least twice a week, often three, sometimes four. Week before last I did two zumbas back-to-back. I felt very proud that I could do it.

Started having migraines in October, not long after I started zumba, but haven't quit zumba. Feel like I have one coming on today. In sever months I have had at least six migraines. They did a CT.....I am proud to say they found a brain, but nothing else. Haha! Been doing a lot of reading on the subject and think dehydration my be one of the culprits.

So, just catching up on my comings and goings. Oh, the grandbaby! WONDERFUL! Never imagined I could feel so in love with a baby! She's perfect!